where is this sun you speak of?

I dreamt of my mama this morning and in my dream I was crying while looking at my mama lying on her bed but she smiled at me and she held my hand so tight. That was the most beautiful dream I've ever dreamt! I woke up with a big smile on my face! and said, "This should be a beautiful day!" You know what? I may not understand why mama smiled at me and held me so tightly. But I think its because she wants me to stay calm amidst all the troubles I've been to these past few days. I've been crying and crying every night before I go to sleep. I'm worried about something that might change everything about and around me. Maybe she knew that I can't stand these things anymore. She is the most understanding person I've ever known! Thank you mama for always being there. Though I can't personally talk to you whenever I need something unlike before still you made me feel that you're still there. You never put me down. You're always here... beside me...

WHY DO I ALWAYS GET THE LEAST PART OF EVERYTHING? WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE  TO FACE FEAR AND SACRIFICE FOR SOMETHING? WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE  MY LIMITS? WHY CAN'T I LIVE MY LIFE  AS HAPPY AS IT SHOULD BE?

Tang-ina! Gabi gabi na akong kinakabahan. Sa tuwing naririnig ko siya, Hindi ako mapakali. Bakit kaya? Para bang galit na galit siya sa akin. Tatlong araw na siyang ganito. Gabi gabi naririnig ko. Bakit kaya? Wala naman akong nagawang masama sa kanya. Ni hindi ko nga siya pinapansin.. Sa tingin mo? Bakit kaya?

"yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away now it looks as though they're here to stay. oh i believe in yesterday..." this plainly reminds me of my mama.  i remember singing this song with her  while she's on her bed.  even though she can't pronounce the words  clearly, she tried her best to sing it with me. i miss her. "Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be, There's a shadow hanging over me, Oh, yesterday came suddenly..." ma, thank you.  thank you for always being there  with me. thank you because you  helped me understand what  life really is.  i know you're always here  with us, you and papa.  with the both of you,  i'm whole again. "Why she Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say. I said, Something wrong, now I long for yesterday..." it was really hard for us,  your sons and daughters,  to let go of you. you are  our mama and you will always be  in our hearts and always be...

meron akong kaibigan magaling sa math, science.. sa lahat! ngunit siya ay bobo kung minsan lalo na't pag ako ang kaharap. hindi naman ako mas magaling sa kanya, sadyang nagiging tanga siya kapag ako ang kausap niya. malamang crush niya ako, diba? lagi siyang nakatingin sa akin tinutukso niya ako sa iba nakaka-asar... nakaka-asar... hindi ko siya type hindi talaga! ngayong gabi, gusto kong matulog ng mahimbing. gusto kong managinip ng maganda. sana makapiling ko siya. wala... hindi ko alam anong dapat gawin... napasulat lang ako dahil miss ko na 'to. saan na ang diary ko?

Kanina lang sumakay ako ng jeep pauwi sa bahay. Nakaupo ako sa dulo. May katabi akong naka-dilaw na t-shirt, berde na skinny jeans, pink na tsinelas at pulang bag na parang pinaliguan ng kiwi sa sobrang kintab. Sa harap ko naman ay isang lalaking naka shades, black na sando, bughaw na gusot gusot na panatalon, tsinelas na maitim at may hawak na papel sa kanang kamay. Pagkatapos kong pansinin silang dalawa, naalala ko bigla na may binili pala akong vitwater na color blue sa isang convinience store malapit sa paaralan kanina. Agad-agad kong kinuha ito sa loob ng bag at binuksan para inumin. Pagkatapos, ibinalik ko ito sa loob ng bag at tumingin sa labas ng parang bintana ng jeep. Napatingin ako sa sapatos kong chuck taylor at tiningnan na rin ang tsinelas nung lalakeng nakaupo sa harapan ko. Hangang-hanga ako sa paa niya, mabuti pa ang paa niya, naka Hvaians. Tumingin ako sa tsinelas ng babaeng nakaupo sa tabi ko. Hindi ito Hvaians, pero malinis ang paa niya kung ikumpara mo sa lalaken...

When its a free day and you have no other things to do, most probably you would go online. What if your sister wants to borrow your laptop and since you're a good and patient sister you let her use it and wait until she's done. Thinking that maybe she's gonna use it for like 30 mins or so. But 30 mins has passed and you see your sister enjoying the time she spent in the cyberspace, you prefer to watch tv and let your sister spend more time on the net. After all, when she's done, you'll be able to use it for infinity. You turned on the tv. You pressed 1 and 7 buttons and you're now tuned in to National Geographic Channel. You enjoyed the documentation and you were kinda serious about it. After a while, you're sister was very noisy, shouting, because her crush just added her in her facebook account. Because you understand your sister's emotion, not to mention you act the same whenever you see your crush, instead of shouting at her to be quiet, you prefer...