where is this sun you speak of?

There's so many uncertainties in my life right now and to be honest, I don't even know how I even have the courage to get up every day if not for having breakfast together with my husband before he goes to work. Work's been interesting but not as satisfactory as before. I keep thinking that I am not in the right environment anymore, but I don't even know what I want. So most of my day at work is just work. I guess that isn't too bad because I am able to separate work and life. I guess that's how it is when you're in mid-thirties? There is more to life than what you do for work. And as someone who definitely will work until retirement, I hope one day I get past right this... weird emotion towards work. So my mantra lately has been, do good work as always, but clock out after 6.  So apart from this facet of my life, there's the visa. French bureaucracy is real and painful. I am in my second renewal process and even so I still feel anxious that I may not ge...

  The anticipation was worth it. Every single day, I would ask my husband to check out the trees at the park when he goes back home from work. And finally yesterday, they are in full bloom. There was no one at the park, so we enjoyed these ourselves. I wondered, and asked my husband, "am I the only one who is looking forward to see them, anticipating the bloom each day? No one is here!" Or maybe it was a weekday anyway. I am sure this weekend will be packed to enjoy the full bloom, just like last year. We won't be here for that as we will be visiting my husband's family and spend Easter with them. I look forward to egg hunting and some balade digestif (if I am not mistaken). His family loves to walk a lot after a big lunch. It's enjoyable. It's been a while since I wrote here. The older I get, the more I don't have the time to really sit with my thoughts and pouring out everything into a while blank digital "paper". I am glad to have that tonight...