Cold December Mornings

Cold mornings

under the blanket

next to you.

It's silent;

your breath is all I 

hear. Comfort.

We have a

few minutes to stay

still. Calming.

Waiting for

the radio alarm

to turn on.

It plays a

music I've never

heard before.

The kind of

music they used to

play back then.

It's calming,

comforting, to be

next to you.

Cold mornings

every single day

for winter.

With you, life

is never easy, 

I know it.

My life is

meaningful when I'm 

with you. 

In between mountains in Ninh Binh

 

Ninh Binh, 2019

Far from the city. 

Sunshine slowly coming through. 

A morning bike ride.

As the years pass by

As the years pass by, our memories become

as though they are golden

as though they are a movie

sometimes it retells all events at once

but then also shows perfect stills of each

wonderful moments

capturing every breath

every color

every sound

every movement

every detail of how it smells like

how it feels like

how it seems like

making the present

seem as though you are there

back in those fleeting moments.

Such magic

what a wonderful feeling.

Where it rains?

Cu Chi, Vietnam

I wander

through the woods

to find familiarity

of the home, I once knew.

I travel

to different countries

to find solace

within me.

I walk

to paths

I have never been

to see something new.

I stay

in the desert

and keep waiting

for the rain.

The perfect twenty-five days

Those twenty-five days with you

were the best gifts that I could ask for last year.

It was a year full of uncertainties for everyone

but there you were - 

making sure we start and end 

the crazy year together.

The moment I saw you at the airport

was the moment I knew that

my day-to-day routine will end.

And those perfect days

were ahead, for sure.

Those twenty-five days with you

were the most eventful days of last year.

Afternoon walks at the beach or around the lake,

along highways and streets,

sunset views, twilight times, fireworks, 

movies, food - mostly sweets, 

teas, snails, and broccoli,

Christmas and new year celebrations,

painting, reading, and shopping,

driving across emirates, barbecuing

stargazing, getting lost...

living life with you 

did not have to be perfect 

but they were. 

Simply because we just let it be. 

Thank you for spending those twenty-five days with me.

Trust in the magic of new beginnings

Siem Reap, Cambodia 2019

Am I ready to begin again?
How do I answer yes without knowing anything about what lies ahead?
Though the thought of it makes life feels longer
and full of content - whatever the future maybe?
How can I answer no and just let life be the same day after day?
The thought of it makes life shorter
and question, what's the point of living?

I am learning how to let go fully
accepting the loss, and I feel strong.
I am learning as the day goes by,
it feels lighter bit by bit.
I am counting days, weeks, and months.
I am ready for new beginnings.

Sugar cravings

About today at 1:29 

in the afternoon.

Cars passing along Halim St

Clock tick-tocking

Footsteps outside the room

Scented candle

Roasted coffee

Almond and shea butter on my hair

I can't wait to eat some

freshly-made munchkins and

a choco-frosted donut

Today.