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Haaaaaaaaaaaaa- feelings. I've had a roller coaster ride these past weeks and for an introvert, it's kind of overwhelming. I think I am at the point of my journey where I find myself at the end of the road that splits into two directions. Do I need to choose between the two or take a U-turn? This is the question that keeps going on and on and on... it never ends!
As I am randomly browsing on the internet, I come across a page showing a full text of a "number 1 bestseller" book about life rules in a chaotic world. It's interesting that I might just have to add it to my to-read list. Anyway, one of the points there is this: Pursue what is meaningful. And I think it also correlates with another point highlighted in the book which is: Compare yourself to who you were yesterday, not to who someone else is today. In this day and age, we often see a grandiose facade of everyone's lives and as much as we are happy to see that everyone is happy, we are sometimes unconsciously comparing ourselves to everyone else. This is a bad emotion to have and as much as possible I don't want it to overcome me, especially after a challenging day. I've come to the conclusion that I cannot consume social media if I know that I can't set my mind on the positive side of things first. This is why I only use social media on weekends, when necessary. Friends would question me why am I still posting photos of my trip two years ago? Or, "are you back there again?!" It's probably because I have never been using this medium for a long time and I'm too OC to post everything in order online. And I think it's okay; no one really cares.
I do not really know much about what the book wants to imply about the first point which is to pursue what is meaningful. All I know is that it brings me back to the days when I've had so much to be thankful for things I don't know much about. Additionally, I think it is a breath of fresh air to stumble upon this so-called rule. I've always had goals in mind and sure there are several things that I want to pursue in the following weeks, months, years but what I did not realize is that I keep going at high speed without asking myself -- how am I doing and what does this mean to me. Heck, I don't even know what is the meaning of having pursued those. But isn't life supposed to be like this? That you can do whatever you can and pursue whatever you want. Because wanting some things, whatever these are, and have pursued them would give satisfaction. Isn't that what's it all about - satisfaction?
Satisfaction is the key to keep me going. However, that's not always the case. I think what I am missing out on is that I forget to attach a meaning to something that I want to pursue because it will give me satisfaction. Or sometimes I must have found meaning to it but it must have been too shallow that I could not remember exactly why.
There's so much to improve on and I'm glad to have time to sit and realize these things...
Hope you're doing well.
x
I do not really know much about what the book wants to imply about the first point which is to pursue what is meaningful. All I know is that it brings me back to the days when I've had so much to be thankful for things I don't know much about. Additionally, I think it is a breath of fresh air to stumble upon this so-called rule. I've always had goals in mind and sure there are several things that I want to pursue in the following weeks, months, years but what I did not realize is that I keep going at high speed without asking myself -- how am I doing and what does this mean to me. Heck, I don't even know what is the meaning of having pursued those. But isn't life supposed to be like this? That you can do whatever you can and pursue whatever you want. Because wanting some things, whatever these are, and have pursued them would give satisfaction. Isn't that what's it all about - satisfaction?
Satisfaction is the key to keep me going. However, that's not always the case. I think what I am missing out on is that I forget to attach a meaning to something that I want to pursue because it will give me satisfaction. Or sometimes I must have found meaning to it but it must have been too shallow that I could not remember exactly why.
There's so much to improve on and I'm glad to have time to sit and realize these things...
Hope you're doing well.
x
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