Right at this moment, I am yearning for more words. I am yearning to gather my thoughts from within that I can write down here because this is what this space is all about -- words. Life has been interesting as it goes... looking back to the last 28 years, it has been a share of good and bad memories. And no matter how much you try to move the fulcrum to make Happy things go higher than the rest, life will always put an amount on the other end to keep it balanced. "You can never be too happy in this life", a reference to Eraserhead's Fruitcake.
You can be content with what you have and when you are, then I guess you should be fine. Am I content with what I have right now? Yes, I guess except I am missing family and friends with me. Four years and I still haven't really gotten used to living here although I manage to survive every day with the same routine, at some point, I find myself yearning for the good old days.
I feel lucky for having the chance to travel less than two hours to visit my sister and her husband over the weekend and go home at least once a year for at least two weeks to see everyone back home. I have never really felt homesick although I do not really know how it should feel exactly.
But being here gave me the chance to live on my own and, honestly, I feel having more freedom to travel everywhere. I have been to different countries and that has changed how I see everything as time goes by. It's such a great gift to be able to travel - I guess I suppose that's the best part of living here.
Even though it feels like life here is stable, I still feel that I need to get out of here somehow. I am not yearning precisely to what I used to have but for something new, that's going to change my life forever. I want to give it a try. Someday.
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