where is this sun you speak of?

Kanina lang sumakay ako ng jeep pauwi sa bahay. Nakaupo ako sa dulo. May katabi akong naka-dilaw na t-shirt, berde na skinny jeans, pink na tsinelas at pulang bag na parang pinaliguan ng kiwi sa sobrang kintab. Sa harap ko naman ay isang lalaking naka shades, black na sando, bughaw na gusot gusot na panatalon, tsinelas na maitim at may hawak na papel sa kanang kamay. Pagkatapos kong pansinin silang dalawa, naalala ko bigla na may binili pala akong vitwater na color blue sa isang convinience store malapit sa paaralan kanina. Agad-agad kong kinuha ito sa loob ng bag at binuksan para inumin. Pagkatapos, ibinalik ko ito sa loob ng bag at tumingin sa labas ng parang bintana ng jeep. Napatingin ako sa sapatos kong chuck taylor at tiningnan na rin ang tsinelas nung lalakeng nakaupo sa harapan ko. Hangang-hanga ako sa paa niya, mabuti pa ang paa niya, naka Hvaians. Tumingin ako sa tsinelas ng babaeng nakaupo sa tabi ko. Hindi ito Hvaians, pero malinis ang paa niya kung ikumpara mo sa lalaken...

When its a free day and you have no other things to do, most probably you would go online. What if your sister wants to borrow your laptop and since you're a good and patient sister you let her use it and wait until she's done. Thinking that maybe she's gonna use it for like 30 mins or so. But 30 mins has passed and you see your sister enjoying the time she spent in the cyberspace, you prefer to watch tv and let your sister spend more time on the net. After all, when she's done, you'll be able to use it for infinity. You turned on the tv. You pressed 1 and 7 buttons and you're now tuned in to National Geographic Channel. You enjoyed the documentation and you were kinda serious about it. After a while, you're sister was very noisy, shouting, because her crush just added her in her facebook account. Because you understand your sister's emotion, not to mention you act the same whenever you see your crush, instead of shouting at her to be quiet, you prefer...

I won't expect too much though, because I know, in the long run, I will be disappointed again. Maybe I'll just have to accept the fact that were just friends. By the way, thank you for your gestures a while ago. It made me smile. I AM SO HAPPY. I AM SO HAPPY. I AM SO HAPPY! I wouldn't be repeating these words if I wasn't, right? So, I'm going to repeat it again, I AM SO HAPPY! =) Because you see? it has been more than one month since you didn't notice me (or maybe you just don't want to...lol)for that long period of time, I was very confused and scared. I didn't know what's the reason behind you not minding me at all. And how dare you only greeted "hi" to this guy when this guy was with me? You never considered me at all! Hey! You're being rude, dude! Those times were the heaviest, man! I was confused. i don't know what's wrong with you. You made me think that I did something wrong, something that is against your will...

Its funny how children nowadays play games on the street or anywhere else. If you let me compare it from my time to date, I would definitely say, "children now are more high tech than what we were before...". Admit it, we may have played video games but it is far more different and far more 'high tech' than what children has today. I remember the times when I pushed my sister to borrow her friend's game boy just to finish super mario brothers. Brick game was also my addiction. But a family computer was always my friend. My mom had ordered/bought a family computer in which the seller/retailer/maker (or whatever you call them..) connected its joysticks to a bigger one. They were designed as a profit gainer. A player must suffer 1 peso, put it into a coin slot and the game will start and ends for about 1 min or so. (and because it was our business, my mom let me play it for free. I would open the lock and put a stick on the coin slot so that the computer would thin...

Hay. Why can't he just treat me like how the way he treats her? Why is it that whenever we talk, he's so cold like he doesn't want to make a conversation with me. Its sad to think that I'm deeply i love with him yet he's feeling the same for another girl. Why can't I be just like her? No. I'm not insecure. Its just that, I want to be liked by someone like him.

I never thought my Speech teacher, Miss J, would do such thing to me! She knows I like this boy a lot. Because she heard me screamed inside the room after class as I saw this boy walking along the corridor. I didn't know she was still in the room. I was like, " hala ka diha! naa akong crush sa gawas! " and then when I looked back, I saw Miss J smiling at me and asked, " sino yung crush mo? " and then my classmates were giving clues and all. And then she asked, " engineering ba? hmm, baka under siya sa akin last sem? " and then I just smiled and she started guessing who the boy is by mentioning some names. When she mentioned his name, everyone in the room were like, " uuuyy... " but I just smiled. I didn't know what to say. I can't disagree anymore because it's the truth! Hahaha! And then, she told me that, " Ok, I'll tell him about that. " And I was like, " Ma'am, you can't be serious. Ayaw uy! " an...

Here I go again. Wow. It has been a long time since I've felt something really painful emotionally. It sucks big time. I don't even know why I cried and why did I let those tears fall on my cheeks and most especially, why did I cry over such thing? Like I told you, it was just a mistake.