where is this sun you speak of?

Hay. Why can't he just treat me like how the way he treats her? Why is it that whenever we talk, he's so cold like he doesn't want to make a conversation with me. Its sad to think that I'm deeply i love with him yet he's feeling the same for another girl. Why can't I be just like her? No. I'm not insecure. Its just that, I want to be liked by someone like him.

I never thought my Speech teacher, Miss J, would do such thing to me! She knows I like this boy a lot. Because she heard me screamed inside the room after class as I saw this boy walking along the corridor. I didn't know she was still in the room. I was like, " hala ka diha! naa akong crush sa gawas! " and then when I looked back, I saw Miss J smiling at me and asked, " sino yung crush mo? " and then my classmates were giving clues and all. And then she asked, " engineering ba? hmm, baka under siya sa akin last sem? " and then I just smiled and she started guessing who the boy is by mentioning some names. When she mentioned his name, everyone in the room were like, " uuuyy... " but I just smiled. I didn't know what to say. I can't disagree anymore because it's the truth! Hahaha! And then, she told me that, " Ok, I'll tell him about that. " And I was like, " Ma'am, you can't be serious. Ayaw uy! " an...

Here I go again. Wow. It has been a long time since I've felt something really painful emotionally. It sucks big time. I don't even know why I cried and why did I let those tears fall on my cheeks and most especially, why did I cry over such thing? Like I told you, it was just a mistake.

Maybe I am clueless and all it takes is a smile or a hello at a guy and they think you are interested or are hitting on someone. YES, THAT WAS A BIG MISTAKE. PERIOD. :)

During Physics. Wala mi mabuhat kay si sir dugay kaayo. Dili ko sure kung nag-exam ba mi ani or nagcheck na ug paper. Basta. Whatever Physics. haha. :) Hay. Makamiss man mo ui T_T

Have you ever felt like you're so sad because you missed everybody in the past but you can't do anything about it because of the fact that you should face the reality that you will never encounter them anymore? I didn't notice that I'm gently rubbing out the people whom I have spent with during my childhood days. And I felt so bad because of it. I missed them for sure! If you're one of my childhood friends and you happen to read this, I would like to ask you these things; Do you, in your life, ever happen to remember the things we used to do? Do you, in your teenage years, ever happen to remember what we used to dream about? Or do you just forget all of these and let all bygones be bygones? ;(

"Pagsure oi! Gwapo ra to kay gabii man" -- Nolin, about that guy I met in a bar one night.