where is this sun you speak of?

It was my mom who introduced me to Him. She said that He could be my brother, my uncle, my friend and my guardian angel. She also said that He can grant my wishes, my hopes, my dreams and all. I was and am really happy that mama introduced me to Him. Really. I can still remember the time when my mama taught me how to pray. We were inside our room, sitting on our bed with our eyes closed, make a sign of the cross, our hands are clasped and I would repeat after every word that my mom has to say.(And I bet all of you know these words too!) After that, were ready to sleep. It became a habit for me. Until now, I still do this every after I go to bed. BUT... things have changed. Ever since, my mom and dad died, my faith for him is slowly fading away. I never wanted it to happen that way. I don't even know how did it start, what did I do and why I became like this.I stopped praying because I thought that it's just a waste of time and God never existed in the first place.I n...

I have this premonition that I will never be the same old Debie that I was before and that is based on the things that happened in and out of my life. I never thought of becoming like this. However, I'm beginning to understand what it's like to be a grown-up kid. I still need guidance and support. In other words, I need both of my two sisters to stand by my side but they are so far away. It's far beyond what is usual. I miss talking to them, though we always fight over simple things. Being with them is just like being with my parents again. I miss them a lot.

Physics class: "There are more than one force acting on a body... may force dito, dito, dito, so on and so force! " " Always make sure that your point of reference is a dog ."

Ehem. Ehem. Kamusta naman ako? Ayun. Problemado. Bakit problemado? Dahil may exam ako bukas sa Integral Calculus at hanggang ngayon wala pa akong naintindihan sa application ng Indefinite Integration . Nakakatamad kasi mag-aral ng math. Lalong-lalo na kapag alam mong bagsak ka sa prelim, babagsak sa midterm at prefinals. In short, babalikan mo next sem. Nakakawalang gana pero go pa rin. (ganun talaga ang buhay, man! ) Minsan iniisip ko, ano kaya ang mangyayari sa akin kapag nabagsak ko ito this semester? Ano kaya ang gagawin ng mga taong nagpapa-aral sa akin kapag nabagsak ko ito? Baka hindi na nila ako pagpapa-aralin at magiging tambay na lang sa bahay habambuhay! Sarap nun! Ayun, alam kong nag-oover react na ako. Pasensya. Pasensya. OA lang talaga ako minsan. 😂 Nagugutom ako, hmm.. gusto kong kumain ng spaghetti kaso wala akong ingredients at hindi ako marunong magluto. Kanina lang nagtanong si Jonji sa akin kung paano magluto ng adobo dahil parang mali raw yung steps niya...

patrick gavas: why put shio's face on the IM chart? superdhebz: superdhebz: why should i? patrick gavas: why should you? superdhebz: exactly superdhebz: why should we? superdhebz: lol superdhebz: unsa daw superdhebz: patrick gavas: what if we did? superdhebz: i dont know superdhebz: lol patrick gavas: what if you knew the answer? patrick gavas: what then? superdhebz: what the eff superdhebz: samok superdhebz: patrick gavas: why are you frustrated? superdhebz: why are you soo kulit? patrick gavas: why are you questioning my curiousity? superdhebz: am i? patrick gavas: are you? superdhebz: shouldnt you ask yourself about it? patrick gavas: why should I? superdhebz: why should you? superdhebz: patrick gavas: are you trying to pass the question should be yours to answer? superdhebz: errr.. patrick gavas: why are you not answering the questions? patrick gavas: why are you stalling? patrick gavas: why? patrick gavas: what if you knew all the answers? supe...

I haven’t cried for a while because I can’t find a reasonable reason (!) for me to cry. I miss crying though. I miss the feeling of missing someone. Sometimes I think I’m naive. I know I miss him but there’s something that stops me from missing him. The past is over, yet I’m still yearning for something to happen between us. I blamed him without proof. I already know what will happen next that time. So, I accused him right away. I don’t want to be the one who’ll suffer, the one who’ll wait for something that doesn't really exist in the first place, the one who’ll look stupid, the one who’ll be laughed at because I’m being serious about it. I know karma will take its place soon. Soon enough! ;( I feel so weak every time I think about it and super annoyed.

It was just  an idea out  of boredom. And I will never commit the same  mistake again!