Steer everything else back in a much better place

Watching this wonderful film - A Tree Grows in Brooklyn - An afternoon well spent!

Just when you know you have everything in place, life always gets in the way. What a cliche but I love how life just rolls out without notice. I must say, today is a proper Sunday. Why proper? Because Sundays are meant to slow down after a lot of hoo haa in the past week - in my case, weeks. 

Sundays are all about winding down and I have never had that in years it seems. You see, I work in the region where Sunday is the beginning of the workweek. So in the last five years, Sundays have been a day of catching up on work, meetings, and basically starting the engine of my work week. I know, I know, I have Saturdays as a replacement but there is just something about Sundays that makes it synonymous to wind down, cozy up, reset. It's just how the way it should be in my brain. So having this Sunday free of the usual stuff that I do in the last half a decade is just wonderful. 

Anyway, so back to what I was going to write about. Some things in life just want to take a steer and when it happens, I get overwhelmed that I end up just shutting off everything else and re-think about it to the point that I get stressed out. Now it feels like I am there again and by there I mean that same place which it seems in a different realm because it's a metaphorical place that seems to be built with emotions instead of walls, stable ground, and windows. Eck, the feeling. This feeling again. I hate it so much that when I am there, I end up getting out of it by taking pleasure in consuming visual arts like movies, animes, or concerts - those kinds that do not need any effort from my exhausted self to be entertained. Haha, in short, I am basically in bed diverting my mind and emotions to a better place.

The past weeks have been difficult but I take whatever it has given me hence drained emotions to the point that I just want to take naps on weekends instead of catching up on life. I hope it ends soon, this whatever this is, this ugly little ball of energy, I hope it will be gone soon. I gotta make choices to steer everything else back in a much better place. I got this.