where is this sun you speak of?

Oatmeal with raisins and apple compote It has been a year of "staying in" due to the pandemic but really, as an introvert, it's nothing new. Although I must say, I do miss those intimate gatherings with close friends and family. And I do miss flying back home or anywhere else. Anyway, lately, life has been good. I have been battling with anxiety and whenever I do, I try to take deep breaths and stay still. I am trying to grow tomatoes indoors - my sister gave me two seedlings a month ago - and I am planning to buy more plants. Apparently, they help lessen your worries? I shall try. Lately, I have been so much into online shopping to the point where I try to do all my groceries in an app. It makes sense to purchase those heavy things online and do my fruits and veggies groceries at the actual store. I live five minutes further from where I lived before so that means it takes me fifteen minutes to walk from home to the grocery store. And it's summer, therefore, I don...

Sunny afternoon at Love Lake The superpower I would like to have is to be able to see my life story from the beginning up to current. Like in a movie where each action, spoken words, emotions not just mine but also those around me, waves of laughter, sad moments; when my orange kitten died under the bakery van parked outside our home and it was my cousin's van; whenever I pray the rosary when it rains because I want to see the sunshine again; the afternoon when I cried so much knowing that my mother has gone to the market and she has gone for too long; whenever she comes back home late from the market and the joy of seeing her back home; the days whenever I intently pick up the phone after the second time it has rung because it is the polite way to do it; those afternoons spent in my parents garden surrounded by all kinds of plants that I usually ready comics or story to because I believed they will be happy if I read them a story; those afternoons spent at sea with my family, frie...

The avari afternoon sun I am always looking for something new without savouring what is currently in front of me that leads me to become unhappy without knowing that at some point in the past this was all I hoped for. I am grateful for those moments where I realize this and have a change of mindset and everything feels good again.  So, today I am going to write down the things that I am grateful for. It's a public holiday in UAE and I have the time to have slow mornings like this and I enjoy these moments so much. Even though we're mostly working from home, and that we can have slow mornings if we want to because I save up 40 minutes of the commute from home to work, it just is not the same when you know you don't have things to think of. So I am grateful for days when I have slow mornings - just enjoying my black coffee and listening to lo-fi music and just be still and write.  I am very grateful that I have a little place I can call home. I just recently transferred to a...

Almost empty room? Not really Haha Wow, it's been three months since I've sat and decided to write something here. A lot has happened since. I guess the first that I would like to remember is the time when I moved houses by the end of March. I wanted to change my routine, pace, and environment so I thought of moving to a new place. I have been wanting to get my own studio but I realized that it is not something that I need for now. I think I visited three or more studios and talked to different agents but I always end up asking myself if I need it? And then I end up realizing that I don't because if I really do, I would not unconsciously ask myself so. So I looked for a flat that I can share with one or two people only. And I found it not far from where I lived previously - it is fifteen minutes away from the metro station. When I first visited the place, I instantly wanted it so much not only because of the bigger space but also the other two people living there felt warm....