Why we ever

view from Kerak Castle, Jordan

Recently I seem to consciously take care of what I consume mentally and emotionally. I guess most everyone does the same as we're all stuck at home at least for the last 3 months. Within this period, I find myself revisiting old songs and get reminded of how they actually made me feel. Some of them, I don't remember at all, others still make sense. Revisiting the artists behind those songs, I realized, a lot has changed and that their new music does not necessarily scream the same voice anymore but something that I connect more of. It's a friendly reminder that I've gotten over those "silly little" teenage emotions.

Life has been too noisy and full of unnecessary things that do not need attention in the first place however obligated that you at least know its existence. Some things nowadays scream attention and you have little to no control over whether to not accept it. Selective consuming is what I am trying to do right now and one of those is music - it reminds me to feel my own emotions and to remind myself that my feelings matter, too. 

I don't want to be numb with my own thoughts and feelings.