where is this sun you speak of?

Excuse me while I try and show off my cooking skills in the past weeks this month. I've been "experimenting" how to cook and so here is a photo dump of food I prepared myself. These are just a few of those recipes that I tried to follow. The others don't look so good, but hey they are tasty (sometimes) 😂 Shrimp, Zucchini and Bok Choy stir fry Quinoa Chickpeas Tabouleh Anyway, I really love this dress that I bought from a thrift shop nearby. So anyway, lately, I find myself wanting to be fully back in the office however transportation stresses me out because sometimes there are too many people on the train, and working at home is getting boring because I have no one else to interact with and so I thought of spending my Wednesday afternoons at the coffee shop nearby. I am so getting used to working remotely now and I love having to use the free time for longer breakfasts and early dinners at home instead of spending it on commute. I wonder when are we getting back to n...

Always clueless at Magpupungko, Siargao 2019 My weekend was spent mostly consuming movies and TV shows, just like the recent weekends this month. In between glorious naps and TV, was (1) me wondering what's important in my to-do list, (2) should I do it right after this episode, and then there was (3) me reassuring myself that I should not feel the guilt of not doing anything at all - that I deserve a whole day mostly spent in bed, in pajamas, under the blanket. It's fall, the days are supposed to be cozy. Who am I kidding - it's summer all year long in Dubai. 😂 In the midst of all that mind battles against my own self, I realize that most of the things in my "to-do" list are not really important apart from doing chores, the rest of them are just to entertain myself. I appreciate myself for keeping a list of "I will never run out of things to do YAY" just in case, and I guess I have been keeping it since a decade ago. I guess my younger self somehow rea...

Watching this wonderful film - A Tree Grows in Brooklyn - An afternoon well spent! Just when you know you have everything in place, life always gets in the way. What a cliche but I love how life just rolls out without notice. I must say, today is a proper Sunday. Why proper? Because Sundays are meant to slow down after a lot of hoo haa in the past week - in my case, weeks.  Sundays are all about winding down and I have never had that in years it seems. You see, I work in the region where Sunday is the beginning of the workweek. So in the last five years, Sundays have been a day of catching up on work, meetings, and basically starting the engine of my work week. I know, I know, I have Saturdays as a replacement but there is just something about Sundays that makes it synonymous to wind down, cozy up, reset. It's just how the way it should be in my brain. So having this Sunday free of the usual stuff that I do in the last half a decade is just wonderful.  Anyway, so back to what...

Mandala for October 17 In the last couple of days, I have been focusing my energy on negativity. I can not even get out of it. I was so drained that I spend my weekends mostly taking afternoon naps - it was heavenly. Sometimes I think that certain things - bad things - happen just so you feel the feeling of being all right . Funny how sometimes I try to ignore certain things but those things always find their way to overpower you. And when it does, it just envelopes you into the darkness very tightly . Why did I even let myself into this finite loop again?  Reminder to myself: you can not change how the people are. It's how they are and no matter how negative they are and the more you try to bring sunshine to them and if they can't see that at all, you are just wasting your time, attention, and energy. So it's better to keep off these kinds of things and let them figure out themselves to be better. It's not your problem. Life is too short focusing on people who bring ou...