where is this sun you speak of?

Paris, 2019 Why does it feel like I am going to do the next big thing in my life after all this crisis? It felt as though I am so certain about it however I know nothing about it at all. Again, however, I am certain of its uncertainties that it makes me feel comfortably comfortable about it. Because that's what life is all about, right? Uncovering the uncertainties. That's what makes life meaningful, right? I have been thinking about this for quite some time and it had been boiling in my head since this isolation started (it's been six months, and counting). I think about it all the time - during breakfast, in the shower, during breaks, before sleeping. It's there - all the time inside my head.  I know I need to be smart about making such a big change. I will let it simmer down. For now.

Mandala Art Life lately is difficult. There is no way else I can describe it in other words but difficult. We are all hoping for a better tomorrow, but the next thing you know, there is something going on in another part of the world. Could it get any better soon? At the beginning of all this, I had thought it would take at least three months for the world to recover a pandemic. Who am I kidding? It's been six months and things just keep getting weirder... I'm holding on the fact that we, especially the front-liners, are learning more each day about this virus.  Last week, I took some time to pray the rosary. Of course, it did not change a thing in the large scheme of things, but somehow, it makes my mind and emotions settle down. I pray with the intention to make everything and everyone around me be better and I really hope this pandemic ends soon and, though people say it will not be the same as before, at least life will begin in a positive way.

Cap Gris-Nez, France - with Aurelien and his parents  Reading - The Neverending Story by Michael Ende . I am reading it on my eBook every night and so far I am 20 percent in the book. At this point, Atreyu is in search of the Oracle.  Writing - Poem about longing: It just takes time . Listening - In between Petals for Armor and Brand New Eyes . I find myself re-listening to old Paramore songs, and of course, I am liking Hayley's new music.  Thinking - For most of my days recently, I am thinking about how my 30's will be like. And a big part of it depends on taking that leap - a big change . Hoping - COVID-19 would soon, very soon, end 😢 Wearing - purple shirt that says " gorgeous " and blue shorts.