where is this sun you speak of?

A spontaneous road trip with my sister Rachel and her husband Melbert to Kidapawan City. The two wanted to visit a friend over lunch, which was around 2 in the afternoon at an Italian restaurant, and left after two hours. As much as I would like to show photos of people, I'd rather keep them in my other social media account (Facebook) and post these two photos which I took during our way back to Davao City. It was great to experience such a spontaneous trip. The spontaneity of it was: my sister knocked at my door while I'm still sleeping, told me to get ready for a road trip to Kidapawan City. It's my first time to wake up to that. And it's amazing. :p For the sake of making the trip much more memorable, I instantly thought about writing down notes while on the road which is inspired by my aunt who does it almost everytime they go out of town. So here it goes: 10:30 - 11:30: Davao City 11:30 - 12:30: Stop over at Shell, Toril. Bought sna...

 Let me just treat my little space as a place for heavy words and narrative feelings as how it was supposed to be during its early years...   The last time I wrote something too personal here was about me being too certain about my goal. The only goal that would matter usually right after finishing a degree. I was certain that within the month, I would probably get a job. Or two months maximum. I was all for it. But I failed. I didn't get the job I wanted. Depression kicked in as well as determination but it was crazy. You know that feeling when you feel determined again right after swimming deep into depression? I became doubtful about myself. I gave a shot at it and did my best but failed.   I did not do any harmful things. No self-harm, self-hate or anything like it. But there were tears anytime of the day. Mostly, at night. Despite that heavy feelings, I did not give up and I don't intend to. Up to now I am still in search for a job but I am not hoping too mu...

This is another handmade postcard I made for Sara from China. She likes to travel, read, photography and music so I made her a postcard with all of her listed interest. Weeks after I sent it, she responded through e-mail saying: "Dear sweet Debie, It's really a big surprise to have your card this morning,I shall say this is the most lovely card i ever received cause you paint it yourself! and it's so nice, you are so........sweet. I LOVE IT! i love photography while till now only with digital machine,i am not an expert on that but it is a really good experience and trying to learn more. i truely believe film photography is much more dramastic, as what you said "MAGIC"! yes! I hope i could have a chance to take film photography someday. and if you could share some of your works with me? It's getting cooler here these days after nearly one month high temperature upto 45 centigrade which is the highest one in my life. and sunny days wit...

I could not believe that it has been five months since I finished college. I thought then that life would get much easier and better but it seems wilder now. Never did I thought that I would shoulder twice as much responsibility once I get out of college. At least not in five months wherein I try to make things easy and slow paced. Although I am still in the "job hunting phase", people seem to challenge me in terms of trust, respect, and conscience at home. They seem to be a test for me to accomplish for later I guess. At least that is how I look at it. I hate to admit what I feel but I think life has been throwing me shit from people whom I thought would be there for me, to fight for me, to believe in me, to be just the family I thought they would be... at least not all of them are like that but most of the people surrounding me right now (and ever since) seem to betray, hurt, and kill me inside. No matter how many times I get hurt so much, I try to keep it inside bec...

I am a massive coffee drinker but lately I have been drinking only a cup in the morning and rarely a cup at night because I have a bunch of teas (given by my sister) as an alternative. One of the teas I have right now is Peach tea by Twinings. Even though its intensity isn't highly comparable to coffee, its sweetness is just as good (at least as to how I make my coffee or how instant coffee tastes like). I make this tea most especially when I crave for some sweet chips or chocolates late at night. Also, don't you love sipping some hot sweet tea while writing down your to-do list for the next day? Or reading some pages of a book before going to bed? :p

I am glad that I bought a scrapbook years ago. It saved me from boring afternoons and too much time worrying about not getting replies from the companies I have applied to . Basically, I just put anything in it. Decided to stick all the letters I have from friends from time to time as well. Just in case I want to bring something with me when I go to North pole or South pole (hahaha!). Scrapbook making is really fun and it handles all important fancy papers I have in one place. Lately, I have been sticking just about anything such as bookmarks, Krispy Kreme art, letters, and others.     "33 ways to stay creative" I got from the internet. My mind goes through this list when I feel like I am stuck in something. It kind of helps me get back into where I am supposedly going. These are some of my bookmarks over the years. First one is from a recollection back in college, a Virgo bookmark, I don't know where I got this one (another bookmark), Horus bookmark that ...

  If I write all my secrets in a tiny sheet of paper, one by one, then I would have a [five gallon] bucket-full of secrets. Most of it comprise of secrets about crushes . Almost all of my friends (and I only have a few so it's okay) know about this. I am the kind of girl who giggles in front of my crush unintentionally and although I always try to think they don't notice it, a part of me wishes they do. And when I am convinced that they do know about this fleeting emotion, I get nervous all the time when they are near my vicinity. It's that crazy part of me. One time I tried to keep it a secret but then I just couldn't because even if I try to stay still and act normal around this particular guy, my friends seem to know what is going on with my mind. They stare at me, sing weird songs to me and give me that meaningful smiles that make me giggle and laugh out of nowhere. So there you go, I am not even talking about one secret rather a bundle of secrets.When it comes...

I made some coasters using flannel fabric, embroidery threads, and *my drawing skills* . The idea is inspired with several hand-made coasters online for two years and finally, finally , I am done with it. I used two colors of flannel fabric: yellow and white; and several embroidery threads. The process in making these coasters are: (1) Draw a circle on a paper (or circles directly on the fabric). Pin the circle on the fabric and cut out the fabric following the outline of your circle. (2) Draw anything you want on the fabric. Show off your drawing skillzz.   (3) Start sewing following the outline of your drawing on the fabric. I used two circle fabrics since one sheet of flannel is thin (too soft?) and I wanted it to be kind of thick as well.    (4) Take another circle fabric to cover the flip side. Use glue for a clean surface. You may want to sew around the outline of your coaster to cover the back. Your choice. So, I came up with these designz...

It was around 11 in the evening when I noticed, from my peripheral sight, a spark from the outside of the window. At first I thought someone was taking a photo so I checked. I then realized that it's just a lightning but without thunder, which was weird. I grabbed my camera and went to the third floor to capture a full sight. It was kind of creepy and beautiful in a weird way ; the neighborhood was quiet, felt cold wind, the sea was calm and there was heat lightning . I did not know it's called heat lightning until I researched about it. It's the first time I've seen such phenomenon so I was quite amazed. Or maybe I have taken a glance of it for years and only keen enough to know all about it now? I am used to thunderstorms so I was just curious about the absence of thunder. So I researched... from what I have read, heat lightning happens usually on humid warm nights. You won't hear any sound accompanying it but "if you are listening to an AM radio, you...