where is this sun you speak of?

A friend introduced me to this poem by Veronica Shoftshall written on 1971 entitled After A While. AFTER A WHILE (Veronica Shoftshall, 1971) After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong ...

Do you enjoy waking up early in the morning & drink hot coffee in a cold early morning breeze? I do. It's that time of the day when happiness comes my way without any reason at all. It's that time of the day when I achieve peace of mind simply because witnessing the sunrise is bizarre. I don't think any person hates the sunrise. I've been meaning to make an entry about this since 2009. Back then, I found perfect songs to listen to early in the morning and these songs are from the band called Fleet Foxes. I have shared their songs to the people I love waking up to in the morning. If you're one of them, you're loved. :) Not all people will like their music in an instant simply because, well, we all listen to mainstream media so we, most likely, listen to it so our day will be hip, or rock n' roll. Hahaha!! But, this band, I feel like they are made for people who likes to reminisce, or think about happy memories, or are just simply happy with life -- w...

  I Really Do by killthecat   Seapony cover. Pardon my guitar and singing skills I just want to siiing! :p This is such a sweet song that I got stoked while playing it -- the reason why my voice was a little shaky. Hahaha

Things have been very difficult for me lately... I can cry all night and not able to move on from it. If only I have someone to talk to about these problems and tell me everything's going to be fine, it would be the best. But then opening up something to someone is difficult because I'm scared of being judged from the things I'm going to say. Sometimes I wish talking and crying to a stranger would be fine and this stranger would be the coolest to respond to me how awful my life is and that I need to change everything or go far away where no one knows me by default and start a new life. Of course, that's impossible but I need someone to slap me the reality of what I have become just because... I am not comfortable at sharing my real feelings to anyone. Or maybe, I haven't found someone who I can trust to in everything I say about my life. Or maybe the question is: do I really need someone to share the melody of my life? Writing down everything on a p...

Does a mug of root beer suppose to make you drunk? Because I was last night. Or maybe I was tired and so I passed out too early? I don't know. It's been a long time since I had root beer. We bought one liter of Mug Root Beer last Tuesday when we were having grocery at the mall. Ate Karen wanted to try it. Also, I saw some interesting stuff at the grocery like Arizona and some German beers. Hmmm, I'm thinking of saving money for those. Anyway, so aside from drinking beer [or getting drunk haha] while browsing the internet and updating some stuff, I tweeted about how I missed blogging like I used to before. Just so you know, I was the storyteller-kind of blogger. So detailed that you can predict my personality just by reading my old blogs. I hated it at some point. I miss it actually. So maybe for now, I will not only blog about events, rants, and some stuff but also continue what I used to write before. So, dear readers, if there's any, please, don't judge me when I...

You can rant all day when you feel like everyone’s putting a joke on you. It’s fine. We need to bring out all these shit that weighs us down. But always remember: you have a choice to be happy. So you might be it. You don’t have to get angry all the time. :)